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Cry your eyes bloodshot while there's still time 'cause soon it's gone and you'll be so shocked one queen-sized coffin
That was built for two is your death bed it belongs to you tease me baby please me with the fresh disease hope riding on a
Bullet alive tonight you know we couldn't get it right come save your life tonight you know we'll never get it right don't
Try to swim to shore because you can't go back say three words like they're the last you'll speak curtains drop concealing
Appearances of heaven destroyer they'll be another just like you you're not the only one I'm not the only one watching the
Fallout fly back up walking where time stands still see how our love kills dropping curtains down concealing appearances
Of heaven without my existence you are nothing without my affection you wilt we fucked like a nuclear war release... fuck
Off see how I let you down watching fallout fly back up
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| ITS FUCKING MAY 2006! to all of you where has the time gone? |
[07 May 2006|11:44am] |
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i feel like a peice of shit.
i've been going through my old posts wich wernt very far down the page considering i havent posted in a long ass time. but remembering so many great memories. and i miss everyone so much. and when i see old friends occasionaly, everythings so weird, and i feel left out because ive missed so much. i know i feel like this because its summer agian. memories are still lingering in the air of the previous summer. the process of change i cant even say ive noticed until right now. forgive me that was selfish.
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| break ups lead to break downs |
[19 Feb 2006|10:07am] |
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...And that was it, over a year of my life over.
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| im an ass |
[29 Jan 2006|05:35pm] |
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i feel so weird updateing i think its been around year. but.. i think im doing this because im confused about life. i guess everyone is but ive never got down onmyself this hard..but ive been thinking I HATE MONEY i hate people that live for more money ... or maybe im just some kinda hippie who beleves love is everything. i would give all the money i have.(which isnt very much right now) wait scratch that for a second my mom just came down and asked me for tyhe video card and im gonna get killed when she comes back from the movie place and relizes she has a 30 dollar fee from me having 4 movies wayy over duee..woops sorry ma. okay as i was saying i would give all the money in the world to be able to walk outside in the moring and take one of those deep breaths that feel so good and so pure...i dont know if anyone will understand that, but i rememer them and ive tried but its impossible. i always remember it from when i was younger maybe back then i was just genuinly happy, and it was that breath that was good, wow this all sounds right in my head..but as i read this im a fucking nut..PUT ME AWAY!
oh its my chubbs BDAY happy b day justine collins.
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[12 Mar 2005|11:23am] |
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i finally got my septum periced! woo
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| Just give me a second to pull my shit together for you |
[07 Feb 2005|11:27am] |
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This weekend has been the most depressing ever! besides hanging out renee and nahee ALOT <33! but matt andy and jessie are now gone, i cried so hard when andy cut his hair, it was if now it was real, and it all hit me hard. renee was there to calm me down on the ride home. i love good friends and im happy all of us are hanging out agian. we all drank at matt and andys going away party it was so much fun, adam came and picked me up to stay the night at his house with him.
things ive been thinking about:
~My chubb chubbs and how i wont see her for a while :(
~My car and the breaks slowly going out and how most likely ill die going home today
~What absolutly amazing friends i have!!!
~How i have to go a week without seeing adam, and he makes me in the happiest moods!
~Me getting to go to maryland this weekend to see my brothers new baby girl:)
~How i need to stop eating so much cuz my pants are hella tight right now
~I'm a mess! i feel like im losing everything. i miss everyone
I DONT WANNA GROW UP..or atleast not just yet...please dont grow up on me <3
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Well i leave for Chicago tomorrow, todays a very busy day i wait till the last second to pack..like with everthing else, o well. but tonight me and jackie r oging to sarahs to see her and jenna and there friends for a movie night :)then im staying the night at stephs and were leaving at 9am tomrrow, its along drive but it is well worth it and it will be fun. were planning on staying in chicago for 5 days and come back rihgt in time for school. im ognna be there for new years and i know thats gonna be amaing. well i hope everyone has a great holiday break and a awesome new years!!! ...i hope i dont get in to much trouble out there! hahaa
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| blast from my past |
[14 Dec 2004|11:54am] |
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so many missed memories, with so many very missed poeple...so much has changed..I HATE CHANGE!!!!!!! and i love all of you :(....until another snowy day.
i wish i could be 7 again when my best friends would come to the front door while my family was having dinner and the door would be open because it was summer and you could barley see their heads poping up over the screen door. and me and my sister would shove our dinner in our mouths ... or i would chew it and spit it in a paper towel cuz i couldent stand my moms cooking haha. and we would run down to daves yard were we would play sports....its sad now because out of 8 of us i only talk to two of them and one is my sister whihc i talk to once a month if that, i cant belive last month was her birthday..and she turned 20...and amanda who lives across the street and neither of us are ever home....things are always bound to change ..but i wish i would have had more control over everything.
why cant it come back,or was it that wrong. maybee it was.
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I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
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| realization |
[05 Dec 2004|07:09pm] |
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All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
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[30 Nov 2004|01:11pm] |
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guys tell me what you want in a girl?>
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[23 Nov 2004|04:23pm] |
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it's like you just cant except me for me..I'M NOT SOME LITTLE TOY!...and i don't see just what's so bad about the way i am. :(
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[23 Nov 2004|08:34am] |
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You Are the Enthusiast |
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You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.
You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.
Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.
You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.
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| damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn boy |
[19 Nov 2004|12:32pm] |
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in video right now
need a cigggggggggggg FAJUCK!
last ngith was fun i gott out of work and went over to my chubbys and went to wendys yummm...i think ive been eating wendys almost everyday now, and bad enough at that i always get the same thing..to bad its ooo effing GREAT!
ooo man chubb chubbs this weekend better be amazing, i need a good weekend.
pffh, only one more hour after this :) Heh.
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Kelly sugg just said im gonna get fat..and all the candy i eat is gonna go to my ass :(
anyway i hope i get fat..cuz i need a cigg GOD DAMNIT!
hahah mine and sarahs journalism paper is so half ass, woops
CHAD UR the fucking SHIT.
alriht work tonight then its the weekend hells ya
ugfuidsghdjshfhlkshf
so much time left till i go home.
CHUBBY I MISS YOU
i'm gonna cry
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| Stephen ITS OVER!!!! hahahahaahah |
[10 Nov 2004|12:55pm] |
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in video productions woo!, actually i'm kinda pissed because i got a contract in this class for skipping to many times..FUCK! my mom said i was grounded but 20 minutes after that susan came over and my mom said i could go out haha..i love it, always seems to happen like that. well today i don't have to work which is bad ass, so im going to wait for chubb chubbs to get outta school and go out with her for the night, and i don't know what else but if you want to catch up give me a call, i'm supposed to also go out with Ian to dinner tonight..I CAN'T FORGET! :) im so pooped i think before i do anything i should take a 2 hour nap, its been sooo hard getting up for school the last few days. but i should go help my group film.
MINDI IS MY RAPEIST! 0ooo000OOoo00oOo00oooo...
<# KElL
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| eeeeeee crampssssssssssss |
[23 Oct 2004|01:11pm] |
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well im currently at braed's, hes playing me some songs (:, ya so my moms outta town and i have to work today what a crock! ooo well. ill get off at 10, and then just not go home tonight. BRAEDLEY LOOKS SO CUTE PLAYING! haahahah..well last night was the last night i'll see chubb chubbs for a week :(!!!!!!! YOUR TUBBY LOVES YOU! anyways shits all been depressing latley! where is the SUN?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!? come out i have missed you!
p.s i wanna go to a haunted house! and i need to get some plans for halloween!
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| what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk |
[07 Oct 2004|11:08am] |
Ahahaha...oh mna its been ages...what up bitches!
me and sarah are sitting in journalism....yes, no im bored as fuck!
well today me and sarah are going over to braeds and then off to friendship park, i think i wanna play some frisbeeeeee!
so at otech, today was just amazing! we were working on our maniquins and i finished earlie so we could just do whatever we wanted so i put mines hair in a hu8ge mohawk it was so bad ass, it look like a fantasy runway model, and then me and a few girls got into how it would be a theme for wild ponys and we ....sfgsdjgnhbdi; time to go ill finish later
KP
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[21 Jul 2004|02:39pm] |
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ahhh i wiah it wasnt so hot! but i have to go to work in an hour it kinda sucks but whatever i need money to fix my car. summers going great! i just wanted to do a quick update and hope that everyones summers going good, i miss everyone!!! MUAH
Kelly
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